Turner is almost 2

Turner enjoying his first
trip to Lakeside.

I cannot believe how fast 2 years has gone.  My little baby is so much a toddler now and it has been such a joy to watch him learn.  Every day is a huge learning experience for him and me.  I miss the baby stage where I got to cuddle him as much as I liked, but it is also fun to be at this stage.  I have to really appreciate the cuddling moments as they are few and far between.  If he wakes up in the middle of the night, I like to grab him out of bed and just rock him.

I think that Turner is one of the most gifted little boys ever.  I am sure it is because he is mine, but he is just so darn cute and SMART.

Turner helping momma bake
for the first time.  Didn't turn
out great, but tasted okay.

He has really gotten into books the last month.  He will sit and read and re-read books for ours.  It is fun to just have him sit on my lap and look with me.  Sometimes he doesn't want to read as much as point out things for me to tell him what they are.  He has recently taken to pretending everything is biting him from within the pages.  I started that once and he has become quite dramatic about it now.

Turner also likes to hear stories about himself as well as point out pictures all around the house for me to tell them who they are.  I would love more pictures of all of you just to put in a book for him as he LOVES to look at them and hear about the people in the pictures.

Turner has also really been taking to using his sign-language more and more.  I have been doing it with him since he was little, but he didn't do much with it until now.  I have started to see the little guy that I watch each week starting to mimic it as well.

Turner's first time on roller blades

This little boy is also quite athletic from what I can tell so far.  He is great at throwing a ball and he just tried out roller blading the other day and did so well with that.  Daddy is excited for more of that to come as he likes that type of thing.

We have been working on transitioning our little guy to a big boy bed.  That has been hard for me as he wakes up frequently and comes out.  I like to see his cute face show up, but that cute face soon dissipates when he gets to where that sleep was not enough.

Turner feeding the ducks some
bread.

Turner is starting to show a real interest in the potty.  He has gone tinkle a few times.  He will tell me when he is Pooh-pooh and will often go to the bathroom and close the door when he needs to do the job, but we can't seem to do that on the potty yet.


I love the learning and hope to post more frequently when I can remember...I long for a laptop so this job can be done more conveniently...I keep hoping.

Beep, Beep, Beep with my daddy

2/28/09
Turner and Daddy have this strange game they play and it seems to only work for daddy. I tried it myself today and I did not get the same response at all.

Torrey will tap Turner on the nose 3 times while saying beep, thus the beep, beep, beep. This always gets a smile for Torrey.

Torrey starting with the first beep


Torrey getting his desired response from the third beep.

Home at last

Yesterday was a great day for me to come home. I felt so much better and I was able to get Turner to nurse well twice...well that was the end. My little boy prefers his dad so much that he will SCREAM when I try to feed him. The only way that I seem to be able to get him to eat now is if I pump and let Torrey feed him. As you can all imagine, this is causing me great distress and tears. I want to have this time with my child and he doesn't want me. To top it off the rest of my milk came in last night and I couldn't get him to eat from me at all so had to get up several times to pump as my breasts are huge and hurting.

Please pray for us as we figure out how to adjust. I am thrilled that Turner loves daddy and vice versa, but I want him to love mommy too.

Because of our nap together yesterday, Torrey also really wants him to sleep with us now, so we had him between us and Torrey just held on to him all night. That used to be me, so with emotions going nuts, my son not nursing from me and my husband holding my son and not me in the night I am a great big mess today.

I am certain all of this will work and once I have a better handle on my emotions things will be great, but right now everything just appears bleak as many of you mothers have probably felt. Just pray for me please.

Circumcision

Well, my little man was just taken from my room to be circumcised and I am sitting here trying to not cry as I know how it will hurt him.

This has been such a surreal adjustment for Torrey and I. We just keep looking at this adorable little boy and thinking that someone is going to come in at any moment and take him from us because he isn't really ours.

The adjustment to the word Mommy has been different too. I keep referring to myself as Nette to my little boy. I have a whole new title that I have to grow into and remember.

My favorite thing so far in caring for my little boy is the nursing. I wasn't sure what to expect there, but it is the most wonderful feeling in the world. Once I got the nurses from trying to force things and had them leave me alone and do it our way, we got it all figured out. He is still a little sluggish with it, but he has had some congestion and then just the first day they apparently are sluggish. He will be less interested today as well since I am hurting him with a joyful circumcision.

He was weighed last night and has dropped to 8lbs 9oz, but they said he is still doing well. He is a little jaundice and they said that they might do the lights today. He nursed much better through the night so hopefully he will flush it out and not need the lights.

I am doing better this morning as I got a little more rest than I have had so far. It was still interrupted, but I didn't mind it too much. It is hard to move from sleeping to sitting and then standing with the incision, so he has to cry a bit before I can get to him, but I am thinking that to be good right now as he has phlegm in his lungs since it wasn't pushed out since he didn't have a vaginal birth. He scared me yesterday (fortunately while the nurse was in here) and started to choke on his phlegm and couldn't get a good breathe and turned blue.

My little man just came back and he is all calm so that helps a lot. Found out that he does have a narrow airway like his mommy which is causing some of the slowness with nursing. I also had them check to see if he was a little tongue tied like his Daddy, Uncle and Grandpa. He is a little but Dr. Yeash doesn't think that is the problem with nursing but will watch in to see how he does as he gets a little older. Might need to be clipped but we will see.

My little man Logan reassured me yesterday that he is okay with little Turner and still loves his Nette. He has had a hard time thinking of Nette as having a little baby. I have been his one and only for so long. He has always been good about sharing as he has the biggest heart for God and others. He brought Turner one of his own blankets yesterday for him. This little man would give the shirt off his back.

I found out later that my husband had wanted to see the circumcision. I should have figured that but he didn't say anything the night before when he left so didn't mention that Yeash was doing it in the morning. I felt so bad and apologized profusely. Next time I will know.