These days don't ever really get easier. I miss you all so much. I long to see you, kiss you, smell your hair, inhale your scent, change your diapers, hold your hand, run my fingers over your soft, dimpled hand, see the rolls of chunk on your body, hear your cries and coos and sighs.
So many "what could have beens" to live with.
I will always miss you. My heart aches because my love for you continues and you aren't here to receive it. This love was only meant for you. No other child can ever have the love intended for you. Each of you have your own special place on mommy's heart.
I love you Jordan Rae.
I know heaven isn't like earth, but since I am still in an earthly body, I do not understand heavenly things, so it helps this mommy to think of you being loved by those I know.
Know I love you so and I still cry and ache for you. I move forward each day because God has me here for your brothers. It is not easy to walk without you, but there is still joy because Jesus is in me and I have the pleasure if loving your brothers.
Until we meet again. My love will continue.