Saturday, November 1, 2008

Home at last

Yesterday was a great day for me to come home. I felt so much better and I was able to get Turner to nurse well twice...well that was the end. My little boy prefers his dad so much that he will SCREAM when I try to feed him. The only way that I seem to be able to get him to eat now is if I pump and let Torrey feed him. As you can all imagine, this is causing me great distress and tears. I want to have this time with my child and he doesn't want me. To top it off the rest of my milk came in last night and I couldn't get him to eat from me at all so had to get up several times to pump as my breasts are huge and hurting.

Please pray for us as we figure out how to adjust. I am thrilled that Turner loves daddy and vice versa, but I want him to love mommy too.

Because of our nap together yesterday, Torrey also really wants him to sleep with us now, so we had him between us and Torrey just held on to him all night. That used to be me, so with emotions going nuts, my son not nursing from me and my husband holding my son and not me in the night I am a great big mess today.

I am certain all of this will work and once I have a better handle on my emotions things will be great, but right now everything just appears bleak as many of you mothers have probably felt. Just pray for me please.


  1. oh lynette, i will pray for you right now! remember that God chose you to be turner's mom, and that you are the best for turner! i will continue to pray for the bonding time between you and your son!

  2. Praying for you Lynette. Just echoing the thought that God chose you to be Turner's mom. It is always an adjustment and motherhood is never what you thought it would be. But God loves you and He is right there with you. It's an adjustment period and He'll help you guys figure it out. Love you lots and will keep you in my prayers.

  3. Welcome to motherhood!! Full of great joy and at times tears! It will all even out. Turner will adore you, routine will come, life will be different, but sweeter and richer. Don't evaluate anything or anyone for a while..way too many hormones!! I am praying for you.